Thursday, May 31, 2018

Learning to FORGIVE...

Sometimes it's hard to forgive. Actually alot of times it's hard to forgive.
Sometimes its hard to realize you need to forgive. As humans we tend to put the blame on someone else. Or make the other person the "bad guy". In any and every situation there's at least 2 sides. As my mom always takes 2 people to fight. So there's always someone YOU can forgive.
You just have to come to that realization. And come to the place in your life that you  can honestly forgive someone.
And it may not be an instant thing. It could take days, months, even years. And that's how my story is.
    Not that I got into a fight with anyone...just that I didn't realize the need for me to forgive and move on from my past. I had to come to that realization. I finally realized that for many many years I had been living chained to that unforgiven past.
   I was adopted at the age of 10....and before those 10 years of my life alot of things took place. But as a little girl I didn't realize all that was taking place. I was just glad to be living with my mom and sometimes present dad. As I began to grow and realize my home life wasn't the safest for me I began to resent many people. Including the people who l ool bed me and were trying to take care of me.
It wasn't until after I was adopted that I realized all that people had done to give me a better life.

  Sometimes it takes something tragic to make you step back and breathe in all that God does for you.

  Sometimes God needs to bring you into a different scenario to make you wake up and realize His goodness.

  And that's exactly what He did for me. I look back on my life now and am so beyond thankful and grateful for all that He has done for me. I can see His hand in my life all along the way. As of recent I've come to fully understand His goodness towards me. I can't even begin to say how thankful I am to have been adopted.
To have a family I can call my own. To have a place to sleep, to have a mom and dad who are always there, and to have so many loving siblings.

  My process of forgiveness hasn't been easy...but it's been so worth it.

  Now some of you may be thinking "who does she need to forgive?" And yes.....that question came into my mind many many times.
    After all....(I thought) I'm not the one who messed up. I'm not the one who made the bad choices. I was just a kid living my life. And all of a sudden I have to go live with a family I don't know. But I came to the realization that I was angry at my parents. Angry at them for choosing drugs and alcohol over me. And my 3 siblings. Angry at my dad for hardly being involved in my life. And angry at the choices they continued to make....not seeming to care about their own children.
   And as I began to think about all of their mistakes and why why WHY??? God began to show me that I needed to forgive and let go....


   I wish it was that easy. If only....
I was reading a book by Melissa Spoelstra named "Forgiveness" and it really opened my eyes and heart to the need to forgive them.
   And to this day it's still so hard. My heart is broken for the lives they continue to live. But I'll never stop loving them. And I'll NEVER stop praying for them.
But you my friends....have a choice to make. To forgive and move on...or to live chained to your unforgiven past.....
   I leave the choice up to you💕💕💕

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

2017 At A Glance....

I have to say 2017 was a pretty awesome year on so many different many people and I'm gonna take a couple of minutes to share all that has happened in this past year.

 January started off with a visit from our social worker who was apart of our adoption and all that went on....we hadn't seen her in a few years. It was so good to visit and catch up!!!
     Then Brittany and Rosie both had birthdays. Other than that January was pretty slow.....

These 3 months were on the slower side. Which was good cause once summer came we were pretty busy. In February Marlie turned 6. In March Jon turned 14 and Jerry turned 13..... 
 April 2nd Mom took Edward and I to Mass to go to a concert. To see Danny Gokey, Casting Crowns, and Unspoken. My 3 favorite bands. We stayed the night in a hotel. And did a little bit of walking around the next day in the Yankee Candle shops. It was alot of fun to be with Mom and Edward for the weekend. 
 May started the business of our crazy schedule. Annabella turned 6. Nicole turned 12. And Grace turned 21.
The other events we did included going to the skylight dining room with our Grampa after he came back from spending the winter in Florida. It's always so good to spend time with him and the rest of the family. 

June.....We added another sweet girl to out family the beginning of this month. As soon as we got her it was like she's always been here. She fit right in and had loved being here. I'm so thankful for her. My brother in law celebrated his birthday the 16th. And then on the 17th Edward and I did out first Spartan Race ever. And loved it so much we signed up for the next one in August. This one was about 4-5 miles and had like 20+ obstacles. A huge thank you to our gym and the owner for helping us train for this event. We both had a blast!!!!!!
July....Jolie had her 2nd birthday.
August was such a busy month...
It started off with Mom taking us older kids to Soulfest in Gilford, NH. We all love going there and we loved the artists that were there this year. We also got to meet Ryan Stevenson!!!!!!
My youngest niece Becca had her 1st Birthday. August 9th.....its so crazy to watch them all grow up and discover new things. I'm so blessed to apart of their lives and watch them experience so many different things. 
August 5th Edward and I did out next Spartan Race. This time it being 8+ miles and like 25 obstacles. We also did it with some church/gym friends. We loved doing that. Definitely more challenging than the first one. But still alot of fun!!! August 22ndEdward and I celebrated our 18th birthday....(while Mom was away on a cruise. We missed having her here to be with us celebrating such a big birthday. But we're so glad she could go away. She definitely deserves it!!!!)
My oldest sister Brittany took Edward and so out to get our liscence. And do some other fun things while we were out. We came home and celebrated with friends and family...and Chinese food!!! 
September was a pretty slow month...Edward completed the Spartan Beast in Killington Vermont. That was 12+ miles with over 30 obstacles and it was on a mountain. He did an awesome job and aim so proud he finished!!! 
October....Mom Brittany and I did a Bubble Run. It was a bit shorter than a 5k but still so much fun!!!
November....I have to say November was my most favorite month out of them all. We got the chance to re-connect with some of our biological family members who we haven't seen in over 10 years. We went to my Uncles wedding. And got to see Aunts and uncles and cousins and grandparents!!!! It was such an amazing day!!!! 
And also.....I got the privilege of going with Maddie to her first ultrasound for baby #2!!!! I watched Becca while she had her apt. and then we both went in for the ultrasound. That was such a neat experience!!!! 
Nov 11th I got to have lunch with my Aunt and catch up on life. I hadn't seen her in over 15 years. So it was so amazing to catch up!!!!!
I know the month isn't over yet....but at the beginning of the month Edward and I got to go to our cousins bday party....which was so much fun!!! 
Again....I am so incredibly thankful for each of my family members. And fro my friends. All of them that have been by my side during some of the most amazing.....and worst times of my life. 
Thank you for taking the time to read this!! Enjoy this beautiful Christmas season with friends and family!!!!
Love, Elisha 
****photos from the year on next post!!!!

Friday, November 3, 2017


Dad and Mom
Chris and Brittany
Mitchell Maddie and Becca 
Edward and I




Welcome to the Winslow House

Hi! My name is Elisha Winslow. I'm 18 and live in a family of 13. I wanted to start a blog to give you all a glimpse into some of our daily activities and what life is like living in a big family.

 First off I'll tell you about my family....
This is my Dad (Glenn) and my Mom (Mary). They have been married for 29 years. 
Now I'll tell you about all of my siblings...
 My Dad is a self employed carpenter. And Mom is always busy with something. Wether it be cooking or cleaning or homeschooling all of us kids. She's always busy....
  Now I'll tell you about my 11 siblings.

First there's Brittany. She and her husband Chris have 3 little girls. Marlie, Annie, and Jolie....
 Next is Madelyn. Her and her husband have 1 little girl Becca. And another baby on the way....due in April.

 Then here is the rest of us still at home:
 Grace (21) currently works at Marshalls. On her free time she enjoys playing the piano,  catching up with friends, and anything music!!
 Then there's Edward and I (18) We're twins and enjoy a wide variety of the same Varying from volleyball to music, and being with family and friends.
 Then there's Jonny (14) who is now way taller than me:):) He has such a big heart for people and how they are doing. He also loves learning new things and studying about anything really.
 Jerry (13) loves helping with anything around the house. Including cooking or cleaning or playing with the younger kids. He's such a big help!!
 Then there's Nicole (12). She is also a huge help with anything around the house. She loves baking and cooking. And playing outside on her newly built fort!!
 Joyanna (10). If I would say jist one thing about her....its that she almost always has a smile on her face. She never fails to bring so much joy into our days. She loves being around her family and she loves music.
 Meira (9). She is such a sweet little girl. She gets so excited to be with family and help them in any way she can. She loves playing outside, cooking, and coloring pictures for people.
 Annabella (7). She loves loves loves being with people. She is such a happy girl and is SO much fun.
 Last but not least is Rosie (5). She is a very active little girl and almost never sits down. She's always on the go doing something. Playing outside, swinging, running around...
 *next post is pictures of my family❤❤

Thank you so much for reading,